Nyan~ ひさしぶり

Nyan~

It's been awhile since I've posted! I'm so sorry! Life has kept me rather busy lately with my new job :3
As for news...nothing very interesting going on lately. Last eventful thing was 桜まつり a couple weeks ago. I had a great time with my friends at the festival. Besides that, I've been rather... hermit like （ノ。\). I did pick up an old hobby that I dropped due to lack of funding nyan~.

 Yes! I have started collecting figures again~ Which means I am now actively watching anime and reading manga once again!

Till next time~
じゃね、
狐梓川

Derp

Havent done much. Some status updates.

80 MNK THF BLM RNG

Seige Bow
Kila with 6 AGI and 16 Evasion x2
Kila with 6 DEX and 12 Accuracy
Wargfangs with OAT working on making it 2-3x
Dragonmaw on the way to being ODD
Auric Dagger
Wilhelm/Aldorf Earring set

Just kind of putting around.

Computer Screenies!

I bit busy today so not sure if I'm really going to have the chance to play, all I'll probably get done today is some more hippogryph farming.

Since a lot of people wonder what my desktops look like I'm posting up the screenshots of my laptop and my netbook. I currently do not have one of my desktops at home on hand but I'll toss those up in the future.

Laptop

It's a picture of Osaka the night after the summer festival from 2005 during my vacation.

Netbook

Mt Fuji with a sakura theme

Dynamis Lord

Today I don't really have time to play since I'm preparing for an ISO 9001:2008 audit tomorrow at work.

We attempted Dynamis Lord...and wiped at 1%. Good first try though! Lacking a few DDs and such but we'll get it next time. After that we did some zone take-overage for northlands in the past.

Pretty uneventful I'd say. On a side note I'm currently goofing around with my new netbook (Asus 1201N) and I'm quite happy. It plays ffxi and such at a decent enough framerate for being on the go!

A desktop screenshot of my netbook!

Still Alive!

Well i guess its been awhile since I've said anything, but I decided to update daily.

Since last October I haven't really leveled anything but I've been gearing up lately. Today I've obtained Homam Gambieras \(^^ )/. I've also come quite close to completing my THF's evasion set. At the moment I sit on +77 evasion and +31 evasion skill!
Other then that just the routine endgame junk.

Today's events were.....
Proto-Omega (Hands, Body, Feet Dropped)
Einherjar (cleared T3 but was not able to attend)
Fomor NM's in the past (Almost full drops on galka, polearm on elvaan)
KB Campage
Hippogryph Farming for Athame

Some newly acquired gear~

Herald's Gaiters
Assassin's Armlets
Antares Harness
Dakani with +4 DEX +8 Accuracy
Dakani with +4 AGI +12 Evasion (x2)
Ungur Boomerang
Dalmatica
Rogue Armlets +1
Relaxing Earring
Morgana's Choker
Summoner's Bracers
Summoner's Pigaches
+4 Magic Crit Bonus on my Weskit

Gear to look forward to:
Hopefully I'll finish my Athame soon with + damage and OAT
Love Torque
Homam Corazza
Novia Earring
Galdr Ring
Zilant Ring
Strigoi Ring
Shrewd Pumps

Not much to say!

Sorry for the lack of updates, just have been swamped with work and RL things.

For now here's a video!

Salvage and Dynamis-Tav Pics soon!

Temp picture for now! Us at KV go ace's helms go!

SALVAGE! WOOO

All right! So we won Zhayolm Remnants today and I received my 25 ares pants~
More salvage to come soon!
Pics too!

When Frogs Attack!

Interesting salvage run, apparently I was drunk and out of my mind according to my LS members...and honestly I don't remember doing this run but I guess screenshots don't lie.

In other news, so far I really enjoy SCH.
LV17!

Also....I has a twin in the LS!



SOTD: "You're Not Sorry"~Taylor Swift

Dejavu!

Decided to level SCH in my off time. My RDM is in a static so I needed something to do outside of HNM events static at night.

Running through West Ronfaure and hitting things with a staff while casting Water...reminds me of BLM 7 years ago...

BLM

SCH

Black belt and fast boots oh my!

Finally completed my black belt last night around 4am....and got trotter boots at 11am!

Progression of the Tarutaru!

Long time no post. I don't really have much to say these days. I'm kind of just drifting in and out of boredom/insanity. No real motivation to do anything anymore.

New notable accomplishments on my escape from real life; Hagi~
~75 THF
~Homam Cosciales
~Homam Zucchetto
~Blau Dolch
~Ziska's Crossbow
~Oily Trousers
~Ace's Helm
~6/6 Ranger Relic Set
~Hydra Beret



SOTD: Stand ~ Everything Changes (Acoustic)

Not much going on.

As the title states, not a whole lot of activity going on. Went bar hoping last couple of weekends, was alright I guess. Work, ffxi pretty much it.

As for ffxi accomplishments since last post!

THF 68....

thats about it, not a whole lot going on there either.

I did forget to mention I got to meet Nobou Uematsu last month. Got a few things signed.

Hope

So I continue to live life and hope. Not much to really say since I don't think too much as of late.

But since my last post I have gotten some things done in FFXI. List of accomplishments in last month.

1. Novio Earring
2. 75 BRD
3. Started on and trying to complete new expansion
4. 54 THF

SOTD: Keri Hilson~Knock you down

Where are things going?

Have you ever wondered what you're going to be doing in 5-10 years? This last week I've been wondering that myself and I can't really come to a conclusion. I know where I want to be and what I want, but I have no clue as to how to accomplish those goals.

Ideally I want to be married and have a children on the way by the time I'm 30. Reason being is I'd like to be around while I can still do things; take them out, play in the yard etc etc. At the rate things are going I don't know how to accomplish that with who I want. I feel completely alone and have lost most motivation to do anything else.

I still have to get up in the morning and go to work, if I don't, well...I'd never have a chance to reach those goals and dreams. At the same time though it feels like wasted effort. It's a pretty big internal struggle I've been going through everyday.

Now I can't even see 1 week into the future. I envy those that have found their purpose or someone to share their life with. A person can only wear the fake smile for so long. Sooner or later it will crack. But in the meantime, for everyone that can relate. Keep on going.

SOTD: "What Hurts the Most"~Rascal Flatts

Time doesn't make it better.

"Time heals all wounds."

This could not be further from the truth. Time never heals all wounds. Time makes you think and reflect over everything and most likely deepen the wounds. Anyways as most can tell a couple days have passed and I'm not feeling any better, actually it's getting worse. Gotta keep the smile pasted on my face though and pretend I'm doing just peachy.

Moving on, I've been playing Final Fantasy XI for more years then I want to say. Even after so much time some people for some odd reason still think I'm a girl player. I found that quite interesting.

I apologize for not writing anything interesting or constructive lately but as most can tell I'm currently in a undesirable position in life at the moment. So really, if anyone wants to be my friend please don't hesitate to talk to me. Meeting new people would really help me get my mind off everything. Hopefully tomorrow I can write something worthwhile.

Just listen to the audio. Best one I could find unfortunately.
SOTD: "Let me tell you"~Philip Wang

Heartbroken, again.

Well I guess I'm single again. I pretty much saw this coming but that does not ease the pain one bit. I still love her very much and hope that someday she changes her mind. This song is 100% how i feel right now.

SOTD: "Your Love is a Lie"~ Simple Plan

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?

I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same
'Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

And you look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean

How does it feel when you kiss
When you know that I trust you?
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So don't try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
And don't waste your breath
Because it's too late, its too late

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know your love is just a lie, lie
It's nothing but a lie, lie, you're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that theres nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that youi're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know your love is just a lie, lie
It's nothing but a lie, lie, you're nothing but a lie

Charity?

What is charity? Now there are a couple of ways to look at this. I realize that there are people out there in this world who help the less fortunate, but how many people do it out of the goodness of their heart with no strings attached? It's not surprising I came to the conclusion that a small margin of people actually do contribute without wanting or expecting anything in return.

While pondering this, a series of memories came back to me. Back then I did not think too much of it, I was either too young or did not realize the entire picture. I recall once I was in the car with my friend's family. We were going out to eat lunch and at the freeway exit there was a homeless person asking for change. My friend's mom told us to hand him a 5. I thought that was nice until we pulled away and she said "I didn't want him hanging out by our car until the light turned green, and I didn't want to seem cheap."

You see! That's it right there. Image. That's what it is, it's all about how you look. Yes, I do realize that society pretty much judges you on image. But now if you're real reason for giving to charity is to boost your image, is it now considered a good deed? One particular group that I know donates millions of dollars a year. Yes I do think its great that the less fortunate are getting help. But at the same time it makes me shake my head and sigh when I realize its all a publicity stunt.

Here is another example, 7 people want to throw a mother's day dinner for their mother. Invite all her children and their family. (50+ within only 3 generations, 12 kids + their significant others + their children and children's children) Now it seemed like a great gesture, surely it would cost a large sum of money. So where is this going? They turned around and made it a fundraiser event. Sold tickets to the event to pay for it. Now it is no longer just family but strangers and business partners. That's the first part that irks me. It is no longer a special day for the mother it was originally intended for. Now there were flyers distrubuted for the event with the name of the companies that the original 7 people owned on it! Saying they were sponsoring a mother's day event for charity.

Now that doesn't seem so bad yet until I reveal the true reasons for it. Two words, TAX DEDUCTABLE. Yes, it's all to find ways to screw the government. Turn a meaningful dinner into a business event. I give them a hand of applause for finding ways to retain more money, but is it worth it? It was suppose to be a special day for someone but now for her it's just like going out to eat on any day.

I myself admit that I do not donate nor give back as much as I should. But every time I do, it's to help someone. Good or bad, overall people are getting helped. But the reasons are not as straight forward or pure as many people think.

SOTD: "Wasted"~Cartel

Grown Up?

Today I sat at work trying to figure out what I'm doing this weekend. After about 15 minutes of thinking I realized that things have really changed in the last 4 years. I've lost contact with almost everyone I went out with.

Reflecting over it, I realized that I myself have changed significantly over the years. At one point in my life, going out daily was the normal thing. I was carefree and didn't think about much. Everyday was going out, eating, shooting pool or working on cars. Slowly after high school was over I started drifting from that group. As far as I know they still all socialize together.

I started keeping to myself and slowly lost contact with everyone I once knew. Which results in what I am today. I go to work, come home, sleep. On weekends I pretty much feel lonely. Yes I am in a relationship but she's busy with school so if I were to complain, that would just make me a selfish prick.

I think the conclusion I'm arriving at is that I feel...old. I know I'm only 22 but I feel OLD. I don't really know what the next step in my life is. I have a job that I've been employed at for 2 years, I don't really see myself leaving it nor do I see myself really making any new friends. It's scary to say but I think that the next step I want to take is to start a family. I can't really explain it but just the idea of being married and having family to come home to makes me smile.

The problem with that is I am only 22 and that path will probably not unfold for another 6 years. (stuff happens) According to people, and by people I mean everyone, think that the ideal life is to hump every physically attractive girl possible. Fortunately or not, I do not share that same mindset, I've always been faithful to my partners and hope for the same in return.

I do agree that social gatherings are indeed fun occasionally. The only thing I do not like about them is that every guy there is trying to get some, even if the girl is taken. That's the problem right there, and it's not just an individual's fault. Most of the time I am disgusted by both people if cheating occurs. Most people just blame the girl for cheating and call her a slut, which in turn I do agree with. The other part though, I think is always over-looked. If a guy knows she's in a relationship he needs to back off. How would you like it if some random guy was doing your partner? Because of just that, I find myself avoiding the parties I once use to attend.

I do hope that my life pans out the way I want it to, but sometimes I find myself wishing i was 16 again. For all those that watch or have seen the show house. I'd probably say I am like Wilson.

(Also decided to start posting sotd with youtube link if availible)
SOTD: "Passing Afternoon"~Iron and Wine

First post

Hi, here to share my daily thoughts on relationships, ffxi moments and random tidbits of life.

Lately I've had some thoughts on my mind about relationships. Does the feeling of insecurity ever go away? Don't get me wrong, I love who I'm with but I guess I don't like who i am. I always get the feeling that she deserves someone better and fear that one day she will find that person. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not the type that tells someone what they can or can not do or who they can and can not associate themselves with, but just because I don't say anything that does not mean I approve or don't get jealous.

The problem with having doubts is that if you bring them up you lose either way. If she is loyal to you and you ask, you show that you do not trust her, but if she is seeing someone else...well you get my point.

Usually I take option C, I wait it out and watch it play out. The downside to this approach is that if it does not result in the ending you so eagerly wanted it to, you're in for a world of hurt since you watched the events unfold.

Now the question is, am I over thinking things? Do the little comments you read on myspaces/facebooks/blogs/twitters really mean something, or are people just thinking out loud randomly. The way I see it is that yes, they do mean something. So far I've always been right about how people feel. I can usually predict the next move but at the same time I always hope I'm wrong. I like to believe in the fairy tale endings and that is what results in my thoughts today, the nervous, doubtful person that I am.